Mahogany is no room for my husband affair

 No life is not necessarily linked by the accident made numerous.
If not quarrel with that, and my mother, I went to the restaurant to drink a fit of anger, I think I probably will not know Shi Xiaopeng, and do not know Shi Xiaopeng, but also Right now it would not have troubled marriage. but life is not if, everything is predestined, the place will eventually happen, escape is also virtually impossible. This is probably my destiny! Yes, I believe fate, otherwise everything that happens in life really can not explain.
comes to my marriage, but also from my family all the talk about. I was born in an ordinary worker's family, parents are no culture, Dad The only hobby is drinking. love to drink may not count how serious shortcomings, the problem is very poor self-control of each drink will be drunk father is a drunk to beat my mother. Since childhood, I was in such full the family grew up in an environment of violence, until I married Shi Xiaopeng, left the family without sunshine.
probably because I'm a girl, my mother has never liked me, after the entrance exam, had not found the work ; stay at home eat the bread of idleness . result, the fish side table, my mother had just eaten a mouthful on the furrowed brow, I just said the word I said, your mind all day thinking about it? me tell you how many times, do not forget to put some fish wine. so fishy fish, cats do not eat. Do you think you, the University pass the test, Rice can be done, can rely on me to support you forever? really do not know where I made my life a sin, you were born the daughter of such a disappointing hh
weekdays, the mother of the household chores for such training can not be lower than me, But every time I put up today. I do not know how, I even played with her mouth, the top, not waiting for her training finished, and muttered the words to, whoever you kept me a lifetime? I went to work tomorrow, their own money to spend, to save the day by your gas. not that you forgot to put wine, As such a harsh word? too I do not eat fish, how do you not make your own?
mother did not think I dared to contradict her, a moment was I was shaking with anger speechless. when she did not react in time, I opened the door, a floating body, ran out. shut the door the moment, I heard my mother Wadiyisheng cry. Then I heard the sound of the room throwing bowls.
the dark corridor I was standing gleefully sneered a cry, and then left the streets, cheerful whistle blew, a never experienced the pleasant kind of felt. full 19 years, I have been living in this breathtaking home, now I grow up, has been my mother as a punching bag, never expect to tell me what the. Yes, I have learned to resist. Where there is oppression there is resistance. this is Chairman Mao said, this point was great.
resist! resist! resistance! I repeated fiercely in the heart of this words, while the upstream tian While aimlessly in the streets.
I do not know how long, watching the street lights a lamp to take a lit up, I felt my stomach a little bit hungry . It was the belly of the Block, to the two side dishes, and then it was a bottle of wine. the desire to drink, is suddenly generated. At home, whenever I looked at my father gusto to drink, they often have This idea, there are times to take advantage of my father do not pay attention, I secretly tried a little, feeling only one word: hot! I do not understand why I like to drink my father like this pepper stuff. finished even hit him wife, a direct consequence of doing so is his wife mm air all my mother to spread to my body. I am wronged, how many times, I want my father's bottle broke, I hate wine, hate the whole days drinking only know the father, but not seriously hate my mother. But now, I became interested in it, is incredible.
Cook waiter and wine on the table, I opened the bottle , an aroma flew at me. I took the cup on the table, poured a half glass of wine, held to his lips carefully sip, instant hot after the accident I actually felt a glimmer of sweet. the original In addition to spicy wine, there will be a sweet feeling, which I did not expect. I sip, this time drink a bit anxious, my tears streaming down choking. I shed tears term, no lungs to the heart did not drink half a bottle of wine, and slowly felt tipsy.
Results of the account, I staggered out of the restaurant, along come the way back, walked for about half an hour, I found that I actually went to the wrong direction. this area of my life for 19 years, was familiar with eyes closed will be able to touch home, and today even the wrong way, it makes me feel pretty fun, but also very exciting. I simply let your gut instinct and where are what count, that makes me depressed I do not want to go back home.
that look like half an hour and went, I came to the fringe, although the feeling was still in town However, under the dim lights I actually smell the fragrance of the harvest, it makes me very excited. I was so excited to run up, run around the city side of the road, I felt a little tired, I slow down slowly. Just then I found the house side of the road fill tire shop, a few guys standing at the door, tell me what is directed.
I heard a young man shouted, look look, so beautiful The school girls, quite a large wave yo! behind him a handsome young man said, such a small body, so even a pair of long waves, a look that fake thing. Now the city woman, with a few never done a breast augmentation surgery?
gang of bullies, dare to so openly discuss my produced a unyielding idea. I went in front of them, red, said the handsome, your sister's chest is fake it, you do not I was getting undressed, in the end you see is not fake? < br> I am intimidated by gang of bullies, and they looked at each other, no one dared to take me. watching them look awkward, I am very happy. I chuckled, laughing while he staggered away. just out a few steps, I heard footsteps behind him came the sound of Ligularia fischeri, could not help but look back and see that the handsome young man of mine. I asked him busy stop, with me doing, like taking advantage of me Yeah! He smiled Samsam a laugh, said to me, I see you drink so drunk, for fear you on the road unsafe, trying to get home. I said that Yes, I can not find my way home Zhengchou it!
man is not bad, women do not love, this sentence is quite justified. Sometimes you see women pounding their husband or lover's shoulder, his mouth a signle you swore you bad bad, his face was smiling into a flower. The bad words, how a good enough word? This is the woman's mental, man if not guess, they could not get a woman's heart.
looks, so that women interested in men, may are the kind of things will come to love this puzzle play guise of men, such as obsession on women dump!
Shi Xiaopeng is relying on his sense of He is a small tire shop owner. That night, he did not take me home, but took me into a hotel. I am probably really drunk, and even stumbled with him to the hotel . entered the room, Shi Xiaopeng put the lock on this bad boy, and then hold me up and kissed.
I did not resist, soft to paralysis in his arms, he was mad that he kissed me. Later I felt he was one by one off my clothes, when I wake up, I tried to open him, but felt so weak, how to push all the blame does not move, had to let him toss. He entered my body, I felt a little sore, but the pleasure comes, and soon made me forget the pain. I began to hold him tightly, the initiative to meet him.
I Still amazed and took her own of their youth. Many years later, has become a husband and wife We had a quarrel, he even called me cheap, because: first time having sex was just as active, it is not cheap? He was right, I did a bit cheap, even on the other side is not know the circumstances, to take the initiative to give himself, no wonder he was not so cherish me.
day, when the passion over, I realized I have done exactly what I sadly lying in his arms crying, weeping, beat him, call him a vagabond, my life ruined. coax me his side, while assured me, so I went after the legal age of marriage, he married I, and also to kneel in front of me I swear, he will love me forever, forever I will never betray.
in his vows, my heart slowly calmed down. is really very strange Although just met this man a few hours, but I have him as their boyfriend or even a future husband. I am very happy to lay in his arms, he touched his sexy chest, side and his vision of the better future. We lay in bed for about an hour later he proposed to take me to the hotel ballroom dancing below, I am pleased to promise him.
followed him to the dance hall, in the vigor of the music, We are fast again, in the dim light, he began to kiss me, I also warmly respond to him. the second half, the dance hall lights dim even more, we sat down last Valentine's dance in the corner dining rooms to In the dining rooms where we were once again crazy sex. This time, I felt the unspeakable pleasure, could not help but cried loudly. Fortunately, the dance music in the great cover of my calls. < br> In this way, we have not received one hair, sex has become commonplace, we are desperate to get cloud-seeding rain, the result of crazy that I was pregnant. because I'm not the legal age of marriage, first child I had to do out .
last thing we parents know, my mother strongly opposed me and Shi Xiaopeng love, her reason is simple: Shi Xiaopeng is a suburb of farmers, but how do I say this is a city people, to follow him, I will be life bitter! despite my mother's objections, continued to maintain contacts and Shi Xiaopeng. Two years later, I married him.
marriage, I naive to think that love is a thing once and for all, could be ruthless Reality tells me, is simply not the case. It is said that love is merely the preservation of only 18 months after .18 months, between husband and wife also said: . .
just got married recently, I feel very happy. At that time, I have to work, the unit's effectiveness pretty good, Shi Xiaopeng the business of the tire shop to improve. I carefully pick up myself, dressed up as a standard white-collar ladies. Shi Xiaopeng after marriage also reveals the temperament of a mature man, I feel more handsome than before. I think the original reason for blocking wishes of her parents to marry Shi Xiaopeng, mainly by his masculinity by attractive, but without losing his masculine gentle, shallow, but without losing his cool, especially our sex life is very beautiful, very harmonious. I am glad he did not marry the wrong person. the parents complain that he is a farmer, but farmers, how now? farmers still can breadwinners, say, a few city people like him so handsome, so let me have a few does not exist. even if there have been, is but an illusion of their own, while the illusion is always short, it is like the horizon lightning, fleeting.
I feel the pain first, we have no common language. I like to watch classic films, and he look up to martial arts films, and even like to buy some to take home to see three films; I sometimes take him to the restaurant to eat Western food, he complained about trouble with a knife and fork, and even steak When directly with the clutch, so I feel a large crowd under the loss of face. I Although it is not noble birth, but underneath is a respect for the elegant woman, his expression of these coarse, all made me feel intolerable.
this not too slowly, I found the Shi Xiaopeng's a lot of secrets. Shortly after marriage, I learned that he had little education, he has only read in school, and how do I say this is high school graduates. Although he looks looks good, but deep down inside is a vulgar man, he always likes to tell someone that he and his wife great, never reluctant to fight about, that is, shortness of breath a few curse. you say, he said, is people saying? Of course, he left me a pretty face, do not tell people he likes to call me cheap.
in the couple's sexual life, in addition to the brief honeymoon of passion, I have never tasted a woman should be tasted the joy of the.
others get, do not feel cherished. men who will happen, no matter a woman, not then hand woman seriously. It's like a cat catch a mouse the same. mouse more Xiangliu the cat will chase the more energetic, so the cat will eventually wear out and a rat killed after happen, no matter, but too lazy to eat a bite. Shi Xiaopeng like a cat, rat happen, no matter to me only after I'm too lazy to look one, sex life is Shi Xiaopeng home less and less, and I did not seriously, their careers have to pay a certain price Well, his business is getting better and better tire shop recently, he was not there how guarding the line?
on my hard working quiet dedication for the family when the husband out efforts to reach the baseless rumor has spread to my ears.
first I do not believe a little bit, over time, I think this is not groundless, even from the physical point of view point of view, I definitely say faithless husband, at least he has a fixed outside sexual partners, or he would not do this to me long maintained indifference, and occasionally do a like or to take care of my emotions like, this I can feel it. So I guess his intuition is certainly having an affair outside, but nothing more he pretends to be more successful, of course, I would not be able to catch him in the handle. Say, a man want to do such a thing, can be caught when his wife tried to grab him not, is holding what, nothing more than to listen to him again to show some phony, say a few words not to be repeated or repentant, then, it has passed . There are several really the wife discovered her husband had an affair soon after this divorce? I think by doing such a thing is mainly to constrain the conscience of her husband, the man the biggest enemy in this regard is not the wife, but their share in the moral sense of his soul, and that a wife is a sense of security so that the most important patron saint of it, nothing else.
night, Shi Xiaopeng in the bath, his cell phone suddenly rang . I picked up to watch the numbers, but not to answer, I would like to know who is still looking for him at this late hour, I crept to close the door, in the bedroom with a phone call in the past, the phone came a woman voice: watch the phone number, if nothing had happened and said: breath, said: I am sure the phone with a woman related. Sure enough, Shi Xiaopeng said something they hurry to go out. when I was only an idea, is secretly behind him to see what happens.
Shi Xiaopeng look at a coffee shop east west looked at the door , as a thief slipped in general, and the room light is very soft, easy to breed in this place of love, Shi Xiaopeng sat opposite a girl, although the light is dim, but the two movements are still clearly seen.
It was a very beautiful girl very delicate. I bear to go back home, I could not help but lie in bed and cried bitterly, Shi Xiaopeng look back to see me, and gently ask me how, I pushed his hand impatiently, her bluntly said: What is it, somehow. Shi Xiaopeng suddenly soft, hands in her hair, whispered: But I never thought of divorce, which she and I have already said, please believe me. , sleepless night I cry.
summer vacation is coming soon, and the mother picked up his son. huge house and I Shi Xiaopeng only two people to live. That day was hot, he came back very late, the door to see me lying in bed, they take the initiative to pick me up, kiss me a while. I smell him a hint of perfume, which I never used that, my brain flashed that beautiful woman's face, not help while nausea, sudden loss of control in the spirit cried: me. I saw his face has changed, and that the situation suddenly deflated like a balloon, very frustrating. He did not answer me, holding a blanket to a small room.
Since then, the relationship between me and Shi Xiaopeng it becomes subtle and blunt. even if very little to say. I think: he does something wrong, but without telling me, I'm just dumb, do not want to pierce that layer of paper only. the years to come, we just mechanically doing should be done, Shi Xiaopeng is more like a child doing something wrong, look at my face all day long to act. we have even a couple of things have not.
Shi Xiaopeng gradually haggard face, my heart and very concern. He is my husband, after all, ah. when I calm down and want to get one or more of the good life with the condition, people are not err too? everyone has done something wrong, I decided to an opportunity to Shi Xiaopeng.
festival that night, his son was picked up by her grandmother. night, I made a Shi Xiaopeng favorite dish. we were drinking dry red wine, ate and talked. perhaps the role of alcohol, Shi Xiaopeng suddenly very domineering to pick me up to the bedroom. He would take off a few of my clothes, I refused him this is the first time since.
, however, did not last long, a month later, Shi Xiaopeng bother to bring the problems and committed.
I was told, Shi Xiaopeng and their tire shop next door get together waiters Xiaomei. I've seen that Mei, the general appearance, but also come from the field of rural migrant women, said to be waiters, in fact, but is a prostitution of women, her career is to eat into the restaurant to provide sexual services passing drivers, are not that cheap grades of prostitutes. Shi Xiaopeng and how could such a woman get together? impossible! At first, I really do not I believe there will be this, but could not help but repeated rumors of others, made from the heart can not help muttering.
order to confirm the authenticity of rumors, I took advantage of the hotel after dark touch, grasp and Mei is sleeping naked Shi Xiaopeng. witnessed the ugly scenes that I Xiufen harder and harder, really want one killed in front of them. But I think for such a man die, really not worth it.
I have read in the newspapers a story: a woman because of her husband's betrayal, chose to commit suicide, like this declined to be interviewed.
so sad I do not want a woman, so I pretty teeth down. but I thought of a grade of either or both in appearance and I simply can not be compared to a woman, even me defeated, how could I willing? leave the hotel got home, I drank a whole bottle of white wine, in the drunk in front of me laughing more than the ceiling. I laugh at myself too spoony, stupid! whom I was attracted to this is to pay ah man, he went so far as this is the stuff! I feel very painful, almost become numb.
this time, I learned that the great Chinese characters, words, the right of the ; words, the right of the became the so-called experiences are not so easily to be Shi Xiaopeng this bad man to deceive.
my pain and who is going to say? I know Shi Xiaopeng was having an affair, and I can not tell anyone, if my mother knew that just so ashamed. Xiaopeng had to and get married, my mother almost did not mad, and now their is so off the stage, she would laugh at me. I used to I finally understand this millennium old saying has some truth of its own: If the conditions of both men and women differ so much, even if the combination of love, this love is also very fragile and vulnerable.
before marriage I pledge to and Shi Xiaopeng, after the wedding what errors are excusable, only that Only one mm divorce outcome!
couples get together in my principles, I will not, and a man to live together. So, anyway, I have to divorce him. since that day was in my hotel After blocking the positive forward, Shi Xiaopeng to never go home. To be able to divorce him as soon as possible, and I called him and let him go home.
next afternoon, riding a motorcycle came Shi Xiaopeng . I ignore him cold face, embarrassed that he walked in front of me and asked me to let him go home with something, if nothing serious, he should go back, and now very busy in his shop, he not at home for too long. Then he has indeed left leg.
I stopped him and had to be a good drawer and took out a divorce agreement to sign him. He took the divorce agreement, Somewhat taken aback, hurried glance, and then pick up a pen table to make the way to sign, I think he will soon sign their name, but then he stopped, looked at me that you really want a divorce? I glared at him, then nodded without hesitation.
he see me so determined, he said, I can promise you divorce, but his son was mine, if you are willing to son, I signed, otherwise, all of the question. He did not mention what conditions I, mentioned only one such, but is this one, but it is my most deadly place. I can give other conditions, including the house , the bank's deposits, but only this one, I must not give up.
think smart and lovely son, I hesitated. son is the love of my life, my son is my life, lost his son, my life lost. If there is no son, I feel There is no love, no care.
view, Shi Xiaopeng was holding my weaknesses: to keep his son, I would stay in the home. my divorce , so a prolonged Cold War began.
since the discovery of his efforts to reach out, I had never forgive him, I have a very offensive to him, looking at him I was sick was vomiting. that he and Mei Black women have slept species, who knows he will not be infected with sexually transmitted diseases? maybe he would have been infected with HIV Xiaomei of it, I would like to live several more years, do not feel like an innocent victim. I like the risk of on the psychological over the top, do not let him touch me touch, let alone had sex with him.
Actually, I Shi Xiaopeng more brazenly outside philandering. Shi Xiaopeng is a grass is always greener playboy past few years, the tire shop with his business flourished day by day, he had a little savings, the potential of nature even been in his lust to the extreme.
even the best woman, as long as he Wanyan, and it will be like an old dress like, readily thrown away. soon, that was his flair Wan Yan Xiaomei, he began to look for stimulation.
Once I came back from her family, forgot his keys, on the way passing Shi Xiaopeng tire shop keys. Shi Xiaopeng not listen to his colleagues that he stores in the next shampoo wash. When I entered He is working with a bunch of wash women laugh, he saw me, immediately Bu Zhisheng Shi Xiaopeng had. gang dressed very sexy women are looked at me with surprise. From these eyes I found with these shampoo Shi Xiaopeng Women have an unusual relationship.
day to eat dinner, I found that Shi Xiaopeng sadly, a preoccupied look. intuition told me that he was hurt. a question, and sure enough, he and a prostitute Luanche, but now people on the correct him, with him to 50,000 dollars. That night I lay in bed tossing and turning, Shi Xiaopeng his arms trying to hug me in your arms, sad angry as long as each previous one to his arms I can calm down, This time I can clearly smell on him the woman who's Grievance children, when Shi Xiaopeng lips conspire my mouth, I think, and I want to kiss a woman, I suddenly burst nausea, forced open the the Shi Xiaopeng.
night I shed tears in silence, I hate Shi Xiaopeng, can be thought of this house, I relented. The next day I told Shi Xiaopeng to the woman on the phone. It was a tall and strong woman, she saw me rude to say: Do you want to save him money and nothing had happened out of 50,000, I'll leave it! Who, two who will not cheat, you should be very clear, if you want to do can go to tell, if you want to threaten us, I'm sorry, I'll go now sue you blackmail. said: money, which I live frugally to save his son for several years for which the money to buy the piano! give money to a woman the moment my heart is hollowed out as a general uncomfortable. back home I can Tingbu Zhu, and I live too tired, what a woman like me? I hope ah, what? I thought of death, stable dose of more than a dozen films, I was lying on the bed quietly.
Fortunately Shi Xiaopeng back early, he sent me to the hospital. I woke up he cried and said he did not want Guizaichuangqian hurt me, he loved this home, just dish the dirt hh Shi Xiaopeng gently stroked my hair, have to admit that I still love this man, just do not know this love could resist such a hit several times.
Although our marriage in name only, but he, after all, my husband, can not say I told him a little feelings are not, to say that I looked at him support the family, so I began to worry about him fooling around on the outside maybe someday long should an accident, because he went to those places are more dangerous place, often between clients jealousy and fights for the incidents.
I began to worry for his safety, he came back too late every day if I could not sleep, until finally he came back, but he often fell down they sleep, want to hear He can not say a word, let alone gentle and considerate. Although we are still a sleep, but who would not take the initiative to touch whom, and sometimes my hands accidentally touched his hand, I like the electric shock like to get open quickly. think of his hands touched I do not know how many woman's body, I feel like eating flies like nausea.
Shi Xiaopeng marriage and I do not live this way to continue the dead, in the lonely boring, I liked the emotional drama classes and books, TV series in which men and women touching the lens or the book description of certain sexual, married women could even let my girl like a First love, feel the heartbeat of sex life and fascinating .
Chujingshengqing it may be, these things make me unforgettable aftertaste ever had the pleasure to experience. I feel restless heart endless spring, but that expansion is difficult to give vent to their desires, like floating in the water of the ball, the more you want to pressure it, the more it Pinmingdiwang jump up!
not lonely in the desire distraction flame broiled under, slowly I became a Xinrusihui old woman, of course, the old first helpless to the sinking of the heart. heart than the body before the old, which is a positive young woman is undoubtedly both a sad and frightening thing. but I caught them, only let his down fall. I can not save themselves, the only people who can help me only Shi Xiaopeng, and this disgusting man at the moment but coquettish woman lay on the bed of another.
I am most afraid of the night, especially thunderstorms, In particular, fear of the night. And this season, particularly in Guangzhou thunderstorms. One day, Tian Ganghei it began to rain heavily. When the rain hit the window ramp, thunder and lightning, I, scared indent the bed, then how long lying next to a sturdy man, with his strong mind to give me comfort. bang, in the empty echoing room, a feeling of extreme fear flutter days to hit me over the earth.
I suddenly jumped out from the yard, barefoot open all the lights lit, and then again TV, stereo, computer speakers all open, the sound turned up much, and shook the whole house with shake up. I The noise in this huge scream themselves hoarse, trying to use it the most original minds of the sad cry depressed and helpless.
sociologist, said, between husband and wife if there is no physical illness or accident, but as long as one month or more no understanding of sex is sexless marriage. If the standards, said a third of marriages in China attributed to asexual marriage. sex marriage could have been the most important and most exciting content, but for various reasons, sexless marriage in our there is a lot of life, this is a fact that can not be avoided.
likened to a dish if the marriage, sex life is in charge of seasoning salt dish. no salt to eat dishes for two or three tons will However, if people eat a lifetime, certainly can not stand. It can also be likened to sex on the cake, butter, no cream, cake neither ornamental value, it is tasteless, the fried like a piece of poor quality.
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